Lets Kill the easter bunny

It's holidays YAY!
Well I go to the beach tomorrow yay. so excited this will be very short as I am super sleepy so going to go to bed soon.
So news.. hmmm Well I kissed that hot guy I was talking about before but apparently he is like the biggest player ever- how annoying. Anyway he was being all relationshippy and I was like eww.. but then I was like oh my gosh I miss this. Like holding hands, him caring, always having someone...
I
 WANT
 WANT
 WANT
 WANT
A
relationship.
There I said it. grrr
So have been eating so shit but I told everyone not to get me easter eggs this year so if they do I am not going to eat them and then they Will regret wasting there money.
I just put photos up on my walls from magazines and shit. there all so cool, happy, thin.
Hopefully I will be
Inspired.
ummm Well I got the dates for starting college again. Its July sometime. So I have to move in the next few months. Away from everyone I know. I am shit scared.
Hope all is well with you all and hope you are all having a great easter :) XXXX

Theres nothing like a detox to get my heart pumping.

Today I start my detox,

It's a five day kit with these juice things. It has a list of foods you are allowed to eat I am going to try not too eat them. Maybee one little meal of fruit a day?

It is the skinni mini diet kit. Has anyone tried it?
Some Effects are nausea, diareer and constipation. The first two I can handle but ah to constipation!
Hopefully it works. No coffee is going to be hard and no alcohol will be impossible!
Anyway I will let you all know how it goes,

Wish me luck!

now. life, let me think. This week I quit collage. I had too many assiments and my heart just wasnt in it anymore so I am having a bit of me time? while looking for a job.ah.over it!
anyway hope all is welll with you guys!
                     XX

I just want to be me again

I can not handle going to bed one more night full, fat but empty.

I can't.
I can't. 
I can't.

After a lovely dinner of Thai I decided that that's it.  
I dogged my friends after stuffing my face. Ran home, wept grabbed a mug ran into the bathroom and shoved my toothbrush down my throat.
negative: I have put on so much weight.
positive: my matabilism will be so good now.
I need her to help me. 
That voice?I know you have hered it as well.
She is constantly there, and let me tell you she only gets louder when you fail.


I promise you this. For me, I need this. I will do this. I need to find happiness, control too know I am "alive" able to live.
Tomorrow I am going grocery shopping.
cucumber, blueberries, water, lemons, soda water, detox kit. 
any suggestions?


I will report back. I can not feel this way anymore.

Here is too my new routine.

I did not go to the gym anyday this week. I am stupid! so sorry.

so this week let me explain;
B. Yogurt with musli and blue berries (220 cals)
MT. 2 ricecakes with vegiemite (70 cals)
L. soup (120)
AT. snowpea's or apple ( 80 approx)
D. grapefruit ( 60)
56o calories.

Hopefully I go ok but it may be difficult as I usually eat more for dinner less then for breaky.
And I gyming it three times minimum..

Hows that sound? yummy huh?


Anyway now for the rest of life.
I am not getting alng with my sister at the moment at all she is being so rude and walking all over me I am well and truely over it and thinking of moving out. I watched the movie 1012 the other day and it made me think with all this disaster in the world whats going to happen I mean it wont last fr ever right?
I met the hotest guy out the other night He is from england so has the whole accent thing going for him. He added me on facebook and some photos he is like crazy hot and others he is like not so ok. Im confused and wish I wasnt so drunk that night and could rememeber haha . But anyway I have been talking to him a bit and may see him next time I go out..

I ha ha hate college and really want to change courses so will
 look into that tomorrow!
do you beauties have a dream course that you wish? are doing?
I need inspiration lovelies!
hope all is well and your all staying strong XX

 ps. thanks for the award zette. fatty falling flat is a tongue twister try say it ten times fast. bet ya you cant xo

Get over it and start to deal with the consequences.

I officially lost it 2 days ago.

It was good for me!

A wake up call in a way.

Now it starts,
-I am officially vegan again
- I officially am not lazy
- I officially think my followers are the biggest bestest babes everr
AND I officially am going to loose 2 kgs this week.

I went to the gym last night and worked pretty hard my muscles are really saw woo!! I lost my iphone the other day it sucks so I have basically no contact with my friends. Plus not to mention I met the funnest guy ever out the other night he was so cool and we were talking for ages and I gave him my number and now it is gone uh oh!

F U C KK M Y LI FE

haha oh well. I really want to go see Black swan! Have any of you gyes seen it and is it any good?
I have collage today but not till late. I didnt go yesterday A G A I N! But I am not enjoying it at all its so shit. Should I swap courses?

haha Above is so cute. I hope her cheeks are jiggling for you.
I found some funny videos on blogs the other day so get ready to L A U G H O U T L O U D!

 Haha ok and for the one bellow it should say.

The feeling you have when you find out the person next to you hates the same bitch you do.

HAHA

hope you enjoyed them And hopefully they actually move for you as a few I have posted don't anyway enjoy.

XX

The sun will always rise!

Thanks so much for all the support. I really mean it, It really helped.
I deleted the post because my friend knows about my blog and I didnt want her to know. So if she reads this hopefully she will realise that it gets to me that she can read it as I just want to express everything but I feel as though I have to hold back.
Have any of your friends/siblings ever Cought out your blogs?
I have collage this afternoon and I think this morning I may go bye some high heels Woo. I'm going to a music festival this weekend i am so excited It has such a good line up! umm what else to report. The gye from last week( The jerk who we will never speak of again) started to talk to me on facebook the other night I just went offline straight away. He is such an A hole.
umm what else has been happening. Well I went out the other night and had heeps of fun it really cheered me up. I talked to heeps of really hot/ nice/ cute guys and 2 messaged me the next day. I didnt reply because I dont need that right now..
Anyway I hope you are all having great days because you are all L o v e L Y.
XO

my oh my.

Hey gyes!
Have been partying way to hard lately. So over it but it is a busy week this week as it is orientation week so all bars and clubs are having the coolest nights! like on wednesday there is a foam party! It's like a club full of foam and bubbles! I Dont know what to wear maybee just swimmers with jeans and a singlet? This weekend was fun I went to my friends party. I got with this gye who is the biggest player. ew I wish I hadn't.. Where was my class? Anyway. I am about to go for a swim, It's hot here and I need the exercise as I lay around all yetserday recovering with a major hangover.. Does anyone have any good hangover cures? I have been shotting lately so the hangover's have been way better.. I must have just been tired.
I didn't go to collage today. I am going to go to every single lesson for the rest of febuary and march. N O T missing one:)
Anyway I am off. But I love you all and enjoy. We are only young once.. XO