Is porridge bad for you.. Like calorie wise?
I must know I always find different answers.. Anyway have been going pretty good not eating to much or too little.. I am vegan again so thats good I feel less bloated. Woo! Well not much has been happening of late I havn't brought anything crazy yet I did buy a nice new necklace yesterday though it's a wish bone. So here's hopeing :)
Talk soon, xx

Newly inspired.

Well well well,
life has been good lately :) So good in fact that I can't get the credit for it. A came and visited today she has major self confidence issues and she basically claimed my life. She said I was copying her life in a nice way surprisingly I don't think she ment to say it like that but dude what the hell? Anyway so now that has inspired me to beat her at the one thing that she can not do. Here it starts. It's that time of year again. Let'd get those chubby legs back into my skinny jeans.
I have some money that I need to spend I'm thinking of buying a skaeboard. I wan't to get something that will keep my outside now that it is warm again. Any idea's?
X

bleh

Ah I have been so bleh lately.
I started uni though and really like it but my eating has been shocking lately! So I am going to blog everything I eat every night so I want want to let you guys down! (even though my writing might bore you to death, sorry about that)
So I still don't have a job which sucks but I havnt quite given up on trying to get one yet! Anyway hope all is good XO

wow.

Well I have moved It is amazing here! However the pressures of not getting a job are getting the best of me. I hate handing out resumes and the disappointment of no response is so painful. I start my new Uni on tuesday so am nervous about that! But I need to make friends here ASAP! :) Eating wise has been the same but I have been doing a lot more exercise here! The beach really helps I loooooooove it and can not imagine living away from it now.. I just want to grow up already and have my life under ccontrol.  Ah! Well this is just a quick update I will keep you updated! Hope all is well!! X

Goodbye dairy!

Yay so I am vegan again! Thank god I am actually glad now I can stop eating so much shit :)
I watched this show on tv and it was this jockey suing this diet company because he lost too much wieght
?? I know sounds reliable right ?
haha but I think I might buy it off ebay it is called sensaslim and it is like a spray you spray and it just controls hunger. Have any of you guys here'd anything about it.

I am going to buy some form of dit pills, spray or detox kit this week so I will think about that. I bought laxatives last week as well but hopefully I won't have to use them!

 I went to court yesterday with my friend because she had been very naughty and didn't want to tell her parents aand anyway you have to listen to the other cases and there was this chick there for shop lifting groceries in a supermarket and her laywer said that she has an eating disorder and got really stressed and had no money so the girl must have been going to binge and couldn't afford it so tried to just take the food crazy hey! The judge was a bit confused but let her off lightly.

So my old best friend comes back from her masssive holiday tomorrow. It is wierd but I am really not looking forward to it I do not know why.

I went and visited the house I am due to move in in july and it is amazing you can literally hear the beach from my bedroom!

Off our deck you have a view of the water it is going to help me get fit because all you want to do is go out side none of this stuck inside watching boring daytime tv. I really need a job!  So I have to move out of the place I am in in like two weeks I am really not looking forward to packing but at least taking my stuff down the stairs will be good exercise right?

Anyway hope you are all happy happy happy :)

XOXO

I wish you guys were here with me.

Hey
Hey
Hey!
have been doing well since I last posted.
 I have began to be able to control my addiction to food and am sometimes able to think about something else in life!Well I am down three kgs which is good.
I am trying to watch what I eat now and have been succeeding yay! Have been a little sick today which is not very pleasent.
I have been living off watermellon which I lovve I could live off it I think! I have given up meat, and dairy and am trying not to eat bread and stuff! now back to real life I had a job interview yesterday ( finally) amd havnt herd back yet but it went well and I am feeling quite confident! It has been so cold of late and am desperate to see some sun.
I am going to the beach tomorrow so I hope the weather is nice and I get oer my little bug.
 It was wierd today I was complaining to my mum how sick I felt and she was like maybee you should go make yourself sick, just put your finger down your throat untll you tickle your tonsils and if you need to vomit it should come up. This shocked me for some reason I don't know why but at least now I know that she has no clue about that side of things because if she did I am sure she wouldnt have been reccomending it!
 How is things going with all you guys? Hopee all is well!XX

You used to be cooler.

ah. I hate who I am at the moment.
 A self conscious fat slob who fails in every way possible.
I just wish I could go back to the way I was.
Me and my friend used to always climb up this massive rock. It was kind of our secret friendship place. And we went to climb up it yesterday and I really struggled to get up it I had to try like three times it was embarrassing (It is hard to get up because its so steep but I took it us a sign).
 Any way I am at my parents house at the moment for a few weeks so I am eating healthy. A fair  bit though which sucks.
So in other news.
The hot guy I kissed the other night asked me to go get coffee with him the other morning I made up some excuse though after I found out his a massive slut..
I really cant get hurt at the moment I think I would just brake.
 I am going out tonight which should be fun. I am not going to eat anything today so I dont need much to get me drunk. I am starting drinking early though so will watch what I consume.

Anyhoo. hope all is well with you sexy ladies and you all have a great week because .....

never forget it :) 

Lets Kill the easter bunny

It's holidays YAY!
Well I go to the beach tomorrow yay. so excited this will be very short as I am super sleepy so going to go to bed soon.
So news.. hmmm Well I kissed that hot guy I was talking about before but apparently he is like the biggest player ever- how annoying. Anyway he was being all relationshippy and I was like eww.. but then I was like oh my gosh I miss this. Like holding hands, him caring, always having someone...
I
 WANT
 WANT
 WANT
 WANT
A
relationship.
There I said it. grrr
So have been eating so shit but I told everyone not to get me easter eggs this year so if they do I am not going to eat them and then they Will regret wasting there money.
I just put photos up on my walls from magazines and shit. there all so cool, happy, thin.
Hopefully I will be
Inspired.
ummm Well I got the dates for starting college again. Its July sometime. So I have to move in the next few months. Away from everyone I know. I am shit scared.
Hope all is well with you all and hope you are all having a great easter :) XXXX

Theres nothing like a detox to get my heart pumping.

Today I start my detox,

It's a five day kit with these juice things. It has a list of foods you are allowed to eat I am going to try not too eat them. Maybee one little meal of fruit a day?

It is the skinni mini diet kit. Has anyone tried it?
Some Effects are nausea, diareer and constipation. The first two I can handle but ah to constipation!
Hopefully it works. No coffee is going to be hard and no alcohol will be impossible!
Anyway I will let you all know how it goes,

Wish me luck!

now. life, let me think. This week I quit collage. I had too many assiments and my heart just wasnt in it anymore so I am having a bit of me time? while looking for a job.ah.over it!
anyway hope all is welll with you guys!
                     XX

I just want to be me again

I can not handle going to bed one more night full, fat but empty.

I can't.
I can't. 
I can't.

After a lovely dinner of Thai I decided that that's it.  
I dogged my friends after stuffing my face. Ran home, wept grabbed a mug ran into the bathroom and shoved my toothbrush down my throat.
negative: I have put on so much weight.
positive: my matabilism will be so good now.
I need her to help me. 
That voice?I know you have hered it as well.
She is constantly there, and let me tell you she only gets louder when you fail.


I promise you this. For me, I need this. I will do this. I need to find happiness, control too know I am "alive" able to live.
Tomorrow I am going grocery shopping.
cucumber, blueberries, water, lemons, soda water, detox kit. 
any suggestions?


I will report back. I can not feel this way anymore.

Here is too my new routine.

I did not go to the gym anyday this week. I am stupid! so sorry.

so this week let me explain;
B. Yogurt with musli and blue berries (220 cals)
MT. 2 ricecakes with vegiemite (70 cals)
L. soup (120)
AT. snowpea's or apple ( 80 approx)
D. grapefruit ( 60)
56o calories.

Hopefully I go ok but it may be difficult as I usually eat more for dinner less then for breaky.
And I gyming it three times minimum..

Hows that sound? yummy huh?


Anyway now for the rest of life.
I am not getting alng with my sister at the moment at all she is being so rude and walking all over me I am well and truely over it and thinking of moving out. I watched the movie 1012 the other day and it made me think with all this disaster in the world whats going to happen I mean it wont last fr ever right?
I met the hotest guy out the other night He is from england so has the whole accent thing going for him. He added me on facebook and some photos he is like crazy hot and others he is like not so ok. Im confused and wish I wasnt so drunk that night and could rememeber haha . But anyway I have been talking to him a bit and may see him next time I go out..

I ha ha hate college and really want to change courses so will
 look into that tomorrow!
do you beauties have a dream course that you wish? are doing?
I need inspiration lovelies!
hope all is well and your all staying strong XX

 ps. thanks for the award zette. fatty falling flat is a tongue twister try say it ten times fast. bet ya you cant xo

Get over it and start to deal with the consequences.

I officially lost it 2 days ago.

It was good for me!

A wake up call in a way.

Now it starts,
-I am officially vegan again
- I officially am not lazy
- I officially think my followers are the biggest bestest babes everr
AND I officially am going to loose 2 kgs this week.

I went to the gym last night and worked pretty hard my muscles are really saw woo!! I lost my iphone the other day it sucks so I have basically no contact with my friends. Plus not to mention I met the funnest guy ever out the other night he was so cool and we were talking for ages and I gave him my number and now it is gone uh oh!

F U C KK M Y LI FE

haha oh well. I really want to go see Black swan! Have any of you gyes seen it and is it any good?
I have collage today but not till late. I didnt go yesterday A G A I N! But I am not enjoying it at all its so shit. Should I swap courses?

haha Above is so cute. I hope her cheeks are jiggling for you.
I found some funny videos on blogs the other day so get ready to L A U G H O U T L O U D!

 Haha ok and for the one bellow it should say.

The feeling you have when you find out the person next to you hates the same bitch you do.

HAHA

hope you enjoyed them And hopefully they actually move for you as a few I have posted don't anyway enjoy.

XX